I am joining a new family, a bigger family, an unknown family. It will be ok. I know it will. I just have to begin and know that this is another door that has opened.
This is a beginning to a new journey and I am ready to fly.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Ready to Fly
I am joining a new family, a bigger family, an unknown family. It will be ok. I know it will. I just have to begin and know that this is another door that has opened.
This is a beginning to a new journey and I am ready to fly.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Dreams
So last night I had a two part dream. Perhaps it was more just in two parts since they weren't really related in any way except for the fact that I was in both. They were both so vivid though that I woke up wondering if either or even both had happened.
Dream 1
This was is not as in depth as the second. I remember starting the dream in a gun fight of sorts. And the person I was with was The Rock. He was moving all Jason Bourne like and it was odd. I was running around with him as people fired on us. Then he got into hand to hand combat with this bad guy and ended up getting hit into a table. The bad guy then came after me and the Rock shot him. That was the first dream. Odd huh?
The last dream ended around 4 something this morning when I woke up suddenly. I turned back over and went back to sleep and this is what then happened.
Dream 2
I was at Disney World even though it didn't look like it. I just knew that is where I was. I was then suddenly in my own wedding but it was not a wedding where I knew the groom but one that had been arranged between my parents and his. I was at the alter waiting for him and then he came in a white tux. I don't remember much about him excet that he had spiked hair that seemed to be dyed blonde more than it's actual color.
Then suddenly the ceremony was over and I had to take part in this weird play outside in a gazebo that everyone in the ceremony could see. It was something about bringing me to meet the mother. My bridesmaids were there but it was his sister, her best friend, another girl and her best friend. The mother came around and looked at me and said "You will need to get all napkin choices approved by me."
I looked at her and told her "Any choices in my household will be made by me. You can have an opinion but that is about it." Then I walked off.
So those were my two dreams. Odd huh? I haven't seen anything with the Rock in it recently, especially not fighting like that. -laughs- Who knows? Dreams are odd and sometimes are just that....dreams. No meaning, no deep background....just dreams.
Ah well. Thought I would share. :-)
Dream 1
This was is not as in depth as the second. I remember starting the dream in a gun fight of sorts. And the person I was with was The Rock. He was moving all Jason Bourne like and it was odd. I was running around with him as people fired on us. Then he got into hand to hand combat with this bad guy and ended up getting hit into a table. The bad guy then came after me and the Rock shot him. That was the first dream. Odd huh?
The last dream ended around 4 something this morning when I woke up suddenly. I turned back over and went back to sleep and this is what then happened.
Dream 2
I was at Disney World even though it didn't look like it. I just knew that is where I was. I was then suddenly in my own wedding but it was not a wedding where I knew the groom but one that had been arranged between my parents and his. I was at the alter waiting for him and then he came in a white tux. I don't remember much about him excet that he had spiked hair that seemed to be dyed blonde more than it's actual color.
Then suddenly the ceremony was over and I had to take part in this weird play outside in a gazebo that everyone in the ceremony could see. It was something about bringing me to meet the mother. My bridesmaids were there but it was his sister, her best friend, another girl and her best friend. The mother came around and looked at me and said "You will need to get all napkin choices approved by me."
I looked at her and told her "Any choices in my household will be made by me. You can have an opinion but that is about it." Then I walked off.
So those were my two dreams. Odd huh? I haven't seen anything with the Rock in it recently, especially not fighting like that. -laughs- Who knows? Dreams are odd and sometimes are just that....dreams. No meaning, no deep background....just dreams.
Ah well. Thought I would share. :-)
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Inspiring
So I saw this picture on Reddit the other day and I now have it on my treadmill. I thought I would share.
On a similiar note I have not been walking. :-( Life has been getting in the way but I am bound and determined to do this. I will begin walking again tomorrow night. I just have to set my mind to it and "Just do it." hehe
Wish me luck.
Monday, September 6, 2010
And so it begins
Well I have been working on walking and for the past 2 weeks I have met my goal of walking 2 miles a week. "2 miles a week????" you say. Well yes. And from a couch potato getting my butt off the couch to walk is rough. But I did it.
Then this weekend my brother and I went on a long walk with Sam, his dog. The walk was about 2 miles long. I was winded and tired. Paul was not and this was embarrassing to me. It was hard to talk and walk and granted some of it was uphill and we were going rather quickly but still......not cool.
So we made a deal. We are both going to be walking 5 miles a week. That is a mile a night with the weekends off. Or every other night with an extra or 2 miles a night for 2 nights, one mile a night the other. The options are endless.
Either way I am serious this time. I am going to do this. And all the walking I do at work doesn't count. This is above and beyond what I walk at work. I am considering seeing if Angie, my friend, will walk with me one night so I get outside. Right now I have been walking on my treadmill although I have to say it really works for me. I am able to watch inspirational shows like "Dance Your A** Off" and "Too Fat for 15" and can feel myself pushing myself harder.
I want to do this!!! There have been rumors in my family that we are going back to Disney in 2 summers. When that comes around I want to be able to get on any ride I want and not worry that I won't fit. I want to sit on the plane and not worry about the people beside me having enough room or being able to fasten my seat belt.
I can do this and I will!!! Paul, my brother, is going to be my check in person, the one to make sure I stay honest and continue doing what I need to do. I am so excited!! I am going to push myself and this will happen. There are going to be tough moments, days when I am too tired but I am not going to give in. I am not lazy!! I won't be lazy. I am going to do this and I am going to succeed.
Wish me luck!! :-)
Then this weekend my brother and I went on a long walk with Sam, his dog. The walk was about 2 miles long. I was winded and tired. Paul was not and this was embarrassing to me. It was hard to talk and walk and granted some of it was uphill and we were going rather quickly but still......not cool.
So we made a deal. We are both going to be walking 5 miles a week. That is a mile a night with the weekends off. Or every other night with an extra or 2 miles a night for 2 nights, one mile a night the other. The options are endless.
Either way I am serious this time. I am going to do this. And all the walking I do at work doesn't count. This is above and beyond what I walk at work. I am considering seeing if Angie, my friend, will walk with me one night so I get outside. Right now I have been walking on my treadmill although I have to say it really works for me. I am able to watch inspirational shows like "Dance Your A** Off" and "Too Fat for 15" and can feel myself pushing myself harder.
I want to do this!!! There have been rumors in my family that we are going back to Disney in 2 summers. When that comes around I want to be able to get on any ride I want and not worry that I won't fit. I want to sit on the plane and not worry about the people beside me having enough room or being able to fasten my seat belt.
I can do this and I will!!! Paul, my brother, is going to be my check in person, the one to make sure I stay honest and continue doing what I need to do. I am so excited!! I am going to push myself and this will happen. There are going to be tough moments, days when I am too tired but I am not going to give in. I am not lazy!! I won't be lazy. I am going to do this and I am going to succeed.
Wish me luck!! :-)
Monday, August 23, 2010
Trying to Change
So I have been thinking about this since vacation and I want to make a change. I am heavier than I want to be and I am unhappy about it. I want to not worry when I get on a ride, I want to get on a plane and not worry about others around me, I want to enjoy shopping.
And I have realized I have control over this.
Is it going to be hard? Absolutely! But I have to do it. For me. Not anyone else but me.
I am going to have to make huge changes but I have already started. I walked a mile today in 24 minutes at 2.5 mph. I am hoping to up the mph and lower the time it takes me to walk the mile. At some point perhaps begin running the tail end of the mile but for now I have to just get on the treadmill and walk. 24 minutes of my life are 24 minutes toward a healthier me.
This is something I want and I want it badly. I have a target weight set for Christmas. I WILL reach that weight but more importantly I will feel better about myself as well as generally feel better.
Keep me in your prayers. This is going to be one long, wild ride.
And I have realized I have control over this.
Is it going to be hard? Absolutely! But I have to do it. For me. Not anyone else but me.
I am going to have to make huge changes but I have already started. I walked a mile today in 24 minutes at 2.5 mph. I am hoping to up the mph and lower the time it takes me to walk the mile. At some point perhaps begin running the tail end of the mile but for now I have to just get on the treadmill and walk. 24 minutes of my life are 24 minutes toward a healthier me.
This is something I want and I want it badly. I have a target weight set for Christmas. I WILL reach that weight but more importantly I will feel better about myself as well as generally feel better.
Keep me in your prayers. This is going to be one long, wild ride.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
It's been a while
Well it's been a while since I have been on here to post anything. There have been huge changes, both good and bad. Life has gone on, just as it always will.
One thing that has developed is my belief system. I have been attending a church with friends that I believe has a Baptist basis to it. This has not only helped continue to help me grow spiritually but it has also made me look deeper into what I believe. I don't agree with all they say but I am not there to agree or disagree. I am there to take what God is presenting to me and learning from it. Am I where I want to be yet? Not even close. But I am feeling that urge, that almost physical need to do more. That is what I have been working on.
Then there is work. I have a new co-worker this year. Then I just lost a co-worker to a car accident. I am going to attend the funeral tomorrow with others from work. I won't say the common "It makes me think about how precious life is." I feel more that I need to tell people how I feel now...not tomorrow, not when I feel like it. I need to make sure those that I really love know it.
On the good side I have already taken the bike out with Paul and Robin. We rode to New Castle, Hampton Beach, and to Seacoast Harley Davidson. It was a beautiful, beautiful ride. I was scared it would take me a bit to get back into riding, remember what to do, etc etc but as soon as I was back on the bike it was....well it was like riding a bike. :-)
Now it is raining and I probably need to head to bed. I am going to try and write more often on here but then again, who knows what will happen. Be good all and sleep well.
One thing that has developed is my belief system. I have been attending a church with friends that I believe has a Baptist basis to it. This has not only helped continue to help me grow spiritually but it has also made me look deeper into what I believe. I don't agree with all they say but I am not there to agree or disagree. I am there to take what God is presenting to me and learning from it. Am I where I want to be yet? Not even close. But I am feeling that urge, that almost physical need to do more. That is what I have been working on.
Then there is work. I have a new co-worker this year. Then I just lost a co-worker to a car accident. I am going to attend the funeral tomorrow with others from work. I won't say the common "It makes me think about how precious life is." I feel more that I need to tell people how I feel now...not tomorrow, not when I feel like it. I need to make sure those that I really love know it.
On the good side I have already taken the bike out with Paul and Robin. We rode to New Castle, Hampton Beach, and to Seacoast Harley Davidson. It was a beautiful, beautiful ride. I was scared it would take me a bit to get back into riding, remember what to do, etc etc but as soon as I was back on the bike it was....well it was like riding a bike. :-)
Now it is raining and I probably need to head to bed. I am going to try and write more often on here but then again, who knows what will happen. Be good all and sleep well.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Recycled Percussion
Angie and I went to the Recycled Percussion concert tonight. I wasn't sure what to expect but what I got was an AMAZING concert with some downright mindblowing drumming. One of the guys, Justin, is able to drum 20 beats a second. A SECOND! That is crazy. It was a great concert and what amazed me even more is that they waited so that each and every person was able to get their autograph or picture. It was really really cool. Here is a picture I got with them and I also got their autographs. It was an amazing experience I will remember forever.
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