Inspiring

So I saw this picture on Reddit the other day and I now have it on my treadmill. I thought I would share.

On a similiar note I have not been walking. :-( Life has been getting in the way but I am bound and determined to do this. I will begin walking again tomorrow night. I just have to set my mind to it and "Just do it." hehe

Wish me luck.

And so it begins

Well I have been working on walking and for the past 2 weeks I have met my goal of walking 2 miles a week. "2 miles a week????" you say. Well yes. And from a couch potato getting my butt off the couch to walk is rough. But I did it.

Then this weekend my brother and I went on a long walk with Sam, his dog. The walk was about 2 miles long. I was winded and tired. Paul was not and this was embarrassing to me. It was hard to talk and walk and granted some of it was uphill and we were going rather quickly but still......not cool.

So we made a deal. We are both going to be walking 5 miles a week. That is a mile a night with the weekends off. Or every other night with an extra or 2 miles a night for 2 nights, one mile a night the other. The options are endless.

Either way I am serious this time. I am going to do this. And all the walking I do at work doesn't count. This is above and beyond what I walk at work. I am considering seeing if Angie, my friend, will walk with me one night so I get outside. Right now I have been walking on my treadmill although I have to say it really works for me. I am able to watch inspirational shows like "Dance Your A** Off" and "Too Fat for 15" and can feel myself pushing myself harder.

I want to do this!!! There have been rumors in my family that we are going back to Disney in 2 summers. When that comes around I want to be able to get on any ride I want and not worry that I won't fit. I want to sit on the plane and not worry about the people beside me having enough room or being able to fasten my seat belt.

I can do this and I will!!! Paul, my brother, is going to be my check in person, the one to make sure I stay honest and continue doing what I need to do. I am so excited!! I am going to push myself and this will happen. There are going to be tough moments, days when I am too tired but I am not going to give in. I am not lazy!! I won't be lazy. I am going to do this and I am going to succeed.

Wish me luck!! :-)

Trying to Change

So I have been thinking about this since vacation and I want to make a change. I am heavier than I want to be and I am unhappy about it. I want to not worry when I get on a ride, I want to get on a plane and not worry about others around me, I want to enjoy shopping.

And I have realized I have control over this.

Is it going to be hard? Absolutely! But I have to do it. For me. Not anyone else but me.

I am going to have to make huge changes but I have already started. I walked a mile today in 24 minutes at 2.5 mph. I am hoping to up the mph and lower the time it takes me to walk the mile. At some point perhaps begin running the tail end of the mile but for now I have to just get on the treadmill and walk. 24 minutes of my life are 24 minutes toward a healthier me.

This is something I want and I want it badly. I have a target weight set for Christmas. I WILL reach that weight but more importantly I will feel better about myself as well as generally feel better.

Keep me in your prayers. This is going to be one long, wild ride.

It's been a while

Well it's been a while since I have been on here to post anything. There have been huge changes, both good and bad. Life has gone on, just as it always will.

One thing that has developed is my belief system. I have been attending a church with friends that I believe has a Baptist basis to it. This has not only helped continue to help me grow spiritually but it has also made me look deeper into what I believe. I don't agree with all they say but I am not there to agree or disagree. I am there to take what God is presenting to me and learning from it. Am I where I want to be yet? Not even close. But I am feeling that urge, that almost physical need to do more. That is what I have been working on.

Then there is work. I have a new co-worker this year. Then I just lost a co-worker to a car accident. I am going to attend the funeral tomorrow with others from work. I won't say the common "It makes me think about how precious life is." I feel more that I need to tell people how I feel now...not tomorrow, not when I feel like it. I need to make sure those that I really love know it.

On the good side I have already taken the bike out with Paul and Robin. We rode to New Castle, Hampton Beach, and to Seacoast Harley Davidson. It was a beautiful, beautiful ride. I was scared it would take me a bit to get back into riding, remember what to do, etc etc but as soon as I was back on the bike it was....well it was like riding a bike. :-)

Now it is raining and I probably need to head to bed. I am going to try and write more often on here but then again, who knows what will happen. Be good all and sleep well.

Recycled Percussion

Angie and I went to the Recycled Percussion concert tonight. I wasn't sure what to expect but what I got was an AMAZING concert with some downright mindblowing drumming. One of the guys, Justin, is able to drum 20 beats a second. A SECOND! That is crazy. It was a great concert and what amazed me even more is that they waited so that each and every person was able to get their autograph or picture. It was really really cool. Here is a picture I got with them and I also got their autographs. It was an amazing experience I will remember forever.

MMMMM of the week - Matt Bomer

Inner Conflict

Hey guys,

So it has been a while since I have been on here writing. I have something to write now and I feel that I need to get it out of my system. A friend of mine is in an abusive relationship. I have made it clear to her that I think she should get a restraining order against her boyfriend but it upset her. I have been speaking to her though about other things. She needs her friends around her and she doesn't need me to pound it into her what I feel she should do. It ultimately comes down to the fact that she has to do what is right. I can't do that for her. It is just hard, as a friend, to sit back and see your friend affected physically and emotionally and not in a good way and not do anything.

So I have prayed a lot about it and basically come to the conclusion that I have to just be a friend and let her know that I am here if she needs to talk. I will also continue praying for her and for her safety. Besides that I have to just let go and let God.

So that is what I have to write about at this time. If I get any updates I will post them but just keep in mind that when people come to work they have a life outside of work that affects them greatly at work. Someone may snap at you, yell at you, or just be rude, and granted it isn't ok but there may be a huge reason why they are acting that way. Take that into account before snapping back. They may just need a safe haven and a friend that cares.